Owning and Facing The Demons Within
Life is very interesting... in the end, some of your greatest pains, become your greatest strengths.
Let's just jump right into my perceptions as I have quite a bit when it comes to one of the key players. In the end I do hold out hope for him and pray that my hope for Brandon will actually bear fruit even though that part of me that has seen life experiences tells me otherwise that this inner struggle may turn into a giant monster in the game we call Survivor.
When Brandon came clean tonight to Coach I genuinely was glad to see that happen. Survivor in and of itself is never a fair or easy experience and if you are wrestling with something at the onset well that is not going to make things any easier..in fact I feel it's just borrowing trouble so needlessly.
Watching Brandon come clean my first thoughts were awesome! Through being honest you can clear the slate and seek the Redemption u are searching for and it can begin anew. I wanted to believe Brandon would find the courage to share the same "secret" with others as something like that will come out eventually.
Okay hiding the secret about being a Hantz is one thing...maybe smart maybe not..depends on how u look at it. I personally think it is a mistake as Survivor does flush everything out in the long run.
BUT what is the deal with being so paranoid about Mikayla? Enough to risk your alliance over it?
I am gonna be real and knowing Coach Wade the way I know him...if you have lied to him..his trust in you is done.
Plus targeting Mikayla one of the strongest people on your tribe and likable is not gonna endear her to u either.
Usually the way early voting goes is you think of what works best for the ENTIRE tribe not personal issues.
Mikayla's strength right now is a necessary and ridding the tribe of a weak bad apple like Christine would be a wiser vote.
Thankfully Brandon made the right choice in this direction but watching the way he went about it actually reminded me of Russell. The lie to Stacey and Christine. The lie to Coach. But why target Mikayla? Why does she frighten him?
Brandon has already given us some hints and the hints state that he thinks she is a Parvati and will wove her charm around and use it to no avail. He states with authority that he is a Christian man true to his wife and that this girl is not going to turn his head. In the first episode he called her "Delilah".
When she is around he appears nervous ..edgy. Yet Mikayla seems clueless as to why Brandon would target her?
So could it be that Mikayla represents something deep seated from his past?
To me it seems that way.
I also feel that unless Brandon gets a hold of those demons that they are only gonna grow arms and legs and become giants. They will affect his game..his decisions. His actions. His goals and aspirations. The whole shebang.
I like the kid and I truly wanna see him gain redemption but at this rate through life experience I am only afraid that this is just the beginning of an eventual spiral that will just lead further downward unless he gets a grip on it.
Brandon you have a shot at redemption still. Just don't let your fears or struggles keep you from it.
Dynamics are starting to display themselves within Upolu.
The ones who are refreshing to me besides Coach Wade (gotta love how he keeps it real!) are Albert and Edna! Albert!
Man oh man is he a barometer or what? There is such wisdom in his insights and what a way to assess a situation at Tribal and during strategical discussions. This is a guy I would want with me in any situation be it tight or be it loose. I am hopeful for a solid 1 on 1 alliance with Coach, as Albert would compliment Coach the best.
I am also happy about Edna. Maybe not a smart move but hey why not give her a shot? Edna to me appears very sweet with good instincts. I like her and am glad Coach is taking a shot on her when others won't.
The only thing is she doesn't think fast on her feet plus her weakness physically. She is that 1000 to 1 odds no one will bank on butt sometimes the biggest risks may turn into something good. She works hard and is a great girl. Plus she wants the best for her tribe. We shall see how this works out for her but I am hopeful for Edna.
Should never have a: called out Coach and Ozzy at first glance. B: Mocked them..c: mocked Coach's character by movements AND Dragon Warrior (did u mean Slayer?) d: play aggressive concerning the idol.
e: allow your attitude when you are already on the block to cement your exit! My feeling is good riddence and never tangle with the Slayer! Rooting for the sweet poetess to win this round! GO SEMHAR!
Still waiting for some more insights on Rick especially given he has been applying for quite some time. He appears now to be overshadowed by the personalities and my gut on him is he is the quiet stable guy.
Stacey...she reminds me of Yazmin Giles from Samoa. I see an early exit for Stacey tho I would love to see more of her dynamics other than just the personality aspects.
Semhar's weakness and possibility of one on one alliance with Ozzy spelled her downfall in the end but spared the weaker players. Whose alliance was made to guarantee the numbers to do so.
Plus don't forget that pesky idol and Ozzy's need for Redemption through it..in either case Jim may be in some hot water should it come to that. Jim is a high roller tho and playing some dice at this point so maybe his gambling could pay off. But there are guaranteed risks that will come through his game decisions and some inner dynamics happening on the island. Plus Ozzy now seems to finally be focusing also.
Watching Ozzy find the idol..my thoughts were production..u had to know he'd find it though. Ozzy is a monkey so I am not surprised at all. It couldn't have happened at a better moment for him but I see him using it pre merge at this point.
Just play it cool as planned and that means..play it cool. If not he is only making his situation much worse. I love the kid..he is funny. But he is just allowing his neurosis to get the best of him compounding an already existing factor of the weakness.
I loved the episode and in the end I still hold out hope for everyone...even Brandon. I pray that one day those demons can be healed and I pray that he can one day find the Redemption he is so desperately seeking!
Til next week..keep your torch lights lit and enjoy the next episode of Survivor South Pacific!
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